Sometimes I think, there’s gotta be something out there. Yeah, me too. Really? Let’s kiss.
Sometimes I think, there’s gotta be something out there. I don’t understand. Oh, you will, some day.
But maybe it’s not even something to be found out there. Maybe you have to go deep inside yourself to find it.
Or you are just bat-shit crazy.
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It’s my holiday. I have borrowed my mothers car.
I visit a place of my childhood. I am living an adventurous life, walk paths I haven’t walked before.
Then I see the cliffs across the lake. The cliffs from my childhood I always wanted to climb. They look dangerous. I remember that this holiday stands under a motto. Do the bold thing. I understand. Yes!
I climb into the car to drive around the lake. Drive around my home where accidentally my parents live. My neighbor says: Your parents miss you. I decide to say Hi. I am strong. I enter, my own man, telling of my adventures. Neither my mother nor my grandmother, my only real family, approve. Okay, as expected. I am offered christmas biscuit. With my last will power I refuse. I am shaken by their insensitivity. You fuckers never cared about my health!
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