You can do good and go to heaven or do bad and go to hell.
This obfuscates the true matter of question: If I do bad, do I go to hell? Do i have to suffer and lose self-love?
Thus to say you are free to choose in fact becomes you can not choose in conjunction with the biological imperative for love.
Thus, those who are good and made the choice to do so say they did it out of free will. While in reality, they did it as a result of a subconscious coercion.
In reality, what they call free will and virtue is the submission to shame and fear of not being loved and the belief of the lie that god will not love you if you do bad.
The absurdity of the regular free will statement lies in the claim that you are free to live a life without love – if you do bad. You obviously fail and drop into various addictions that replace love, however insufficiently. And eventually, depraved (of love), you come crawling back at the feet of the priests and they will say: See, a life of sin is not what you want. Here, come, embrace a virtuous life.
But you do not want a sinful life is a lie. The truth that has nothing to do with free will is: You can not choose to live a life without love.
So it was not the choice to sin that got you. It was the choice to believe that a sin will make you unworthy of love. And then follows the rebel’s even more tragic, yet logical conclusion: I will rather live without love than live as a slave.
If he chooses to obey, though, the will to submit feels automatic, since these thing happen subconsciously. since we do not consciously percieve the coercion, it seems to come out of nowhere. Thus we call it free will.
And thus virtue is born out of submission to cruelty. And since the man of free will is proud of his free will, he will happily exercise it whenever he has the opportunity to do so in order to win his oppressor’s – pardon, god’s – approval.
Thus the free man looks down on the man who follows his instincts to do what he wants and says: I am freer than you. I am freer than you to ignore my instincts and replace them with obedience.
His freedom to obey over his wish to disobey is what makes him free. How ironic.
He dissociates from his self and calls his earthly presence devil. Instead, he identifies with his oppressor, whom he conflates with god, and sees the parts that do not serve the oppressor as evil. He in fact comes to beg the oppressor to free him of his desire to be himself – the desire to sin. He – without knowing it – is hating life and begging for death, for the ultimate freedom. Of what does he wish to be free? Of life, of course, or life as he knows it. In church, he lowers his head and prays: Free me from this misery that is life.
Naturally, when you divorce your identity from your fleshly presence, paradise is a place of weightlessness and selflessness (literally) and a slave’s Stockholmy love.
Not only is he a slave. He also feels ashamed of his wish not to be a slave. He wishes not to wish to be free, in fact. He is proud of his status as a slave.
And this man claims free will for himself?
No. The only free man is he whose instincts are not conflicted and thus uninhibited. He reaches a free flow of life, a life in the moment. A life he can surrender to.
You can never be free of your nature. But you can strive to be free of forces that inhibit your nature.
And if you could be free of your nature, why would you want to? Of cpurse, to look good in somebody’s eyes. In your father’s. In your mother’s. In god’s.
But it is people who had the arrogance to talk in the name of god and claim that his love is conditional. And as they said it, you started to believe it. And as you started to believe it, you lost the ability to receive god’s love. Because you were ashamed to face him and show him your true nature. And if you do not show god your true nature, he can not give you love for it.
There is no free will. The concept does not make any sense, and subconsciously, you know it.
You have been tricked.
There is no free will. There is only the impossibility to live without love.
The man who exercises his free will in the Christian sense is no more free than the man who starves to free himself of hunger.
The Christian free will is an impossibility. It presents the choice to live life without love as free. But it is no choice, for it is impossible, thus no one can and will ever choose it.
The Christian must believe that every sinner – confident man – is devoid of love.
The christian free will makes you choose between obedience and love and disobedience and lovelessness. Since the latter is impossible to choose through the element of lovelessness, the statement in itself becomes a lie. The statement becomes: You can choose to disobey and you can not choose to disobey.
Take away the component about love and shame and hell and the choice becomes simpler: Obey or disobey. And why would you choose the former?
The free will is a double bind. The real free will is not a choice. It simply is. As Nietzsche pointed out, there is no difference between a lightning and the lightnings wish to thunder. Both are one. A free will is one that does not have to continuously doubt itself.
The free will is a double bind. An inescapable logical contradiction and impossibility.
The free will is a double bind. In fact, free will stops to be free every time it faces a choice where either of both sides is clearly preferrable. Then the free will is no longer a choice, but a biological obligation to choose the better. It is only the conflation of god’s love with obedience that makes obedience appealing.
Free will is a double bind. And a slave doctrine. The freer you become, the more obedient you are. Which is another angle of the contradiction. How does it make you more free to let others restrain you? And how are you free not to let them if the alternative is unlivable and thus impossible to choose?
Also, if that will is free, why do you need to invest conscious, unnatural effort to exercise it? How weird.
The smart man is not he who realizes that he prefers love over lovelessness. It is the man who realizes the cruelty of a parent that withholds love unless he is obedient.
But hey, it is your free choice to be obedient and let your kids get fucked by a horny sexually repressed priest.
Oh, did i just? A double bins, really? Oh, my.